--LewN@--

Bad Temper :(

2010-07-03T23:20:00.001-07:00

I know

My temper is bad

I juz dun like

U irritate me

when my threshold of irritation is

50% lower than normal range

I juz dun like

U irritate me

when im having Pre-menstrual Syndrome

Few days of constipation

And a lot of feelings awaiting for expression

I know

I can be nice

Give you warm and fake smile

Lots of patience

Pretending that Im quite understanding

But i failed

Coz my temper is bad

Im true emo

****Bad gal*****:(:(:(

Family Medicine Posting

2010-06-25T00:39:00.000-07:00

Well..this is the 3rd week of my final year..

Im so "lucky" to start with family medicine posting, attached to Klinik Kesihatan and Pusat Perubatan Primer.

Doctors, MA, nurses are very nice over here..

(Although there are always some that hate and ignore medical students, i dun know why, but some forget that they are once medical students like us, and some forget that medical students are going to become doctors in future.)

But, i still enjoy this posting very much, as i really impressed with the way of family physicians in treating patients. They are the one that really treat patient as a WHOLE, and not to treat patient as a HOLE with disease.

And, i also realized the difference between health service in rural and urban area.

I nearly fainted when go into toilet of KK batu.9, really cant imagine how patients are going to collect urine in such lousy and dirty toilet without proper water supply, flush, soap for handwashing and rubbish(pads, underwears, tissues.....) on the floor. So disgusting.

Maybe government should upgrade all these services in rural area, before spend $$ to build more 5-star hospital in the country.

Today, i got my mini exam with doctor. Although i passed, but i still feel sad as really forget alot of knowledge that learnt in 3rd n 4th year. When discussed about "anemia", my mind is just blank no wonder how i squeeze my brain T.T ..need to study hard lo!!

Before ending, just wan2 share a short story.

Yesterday i went to visit patient's home, as i couldn't find the road, so I stopped by a shop to ask around.

I approached the uncle with nice smile and polite tone:

me : uncle, 你好，请问 Jalan 2 系边度？？

uncle (with irritated face)：你没见到我很忙嚒？？人地忙个时候你不要问我啦！！

WALAU A.. uncle u dun need so 串gua??

打开门做生意都这样，生意怎样兴隆？？

Nvm, I got PPD skill, and I believe in karma.

So I say "thank you" to him and chaoz...

The moral of the story is " Always treat people as you wan to be treated"

And really "thanks" to this uncle who becomes my bad role model,

Im not going to become like u in future...

*********End**************:):):)

2010-05-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

是你，踩到我的底线。

以后，不要怪我，不留情。

People, u still wan2 study medic ah??

2010-05-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

http://blog.thestar.com.my/permalink.asp?cat=1&id=30376

Ask your friends/sister/brother/juniors/cousin etc etc...

Think twice before step into this profession.

No, is think TEN times.

It is not as noble as what u/ur parents/ur teachers/ur uncle aunty..... think (in Malaysia).

Have u ever think of, why there is Nurses' Day,

but no people declare 1 day in 365days as "Doctors' Day"?

If u juz wan2 earn alot of $$$, go2 join direct sales la...

They can earn double/ triple more than u ;)

tak payah belajar susah-susah di sini.

P/S: No offence to anyone, juz too excited after reading this article as finally there are someone who voice out doctors' rights.

无聊的咒怨

2010-05-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

我知道没人想听

可是我只想不停的怨。

我希望我有三寸不烂之舌

可以把所有不满意不甘愿不爽不对不和我心意的事情

都念到对为止。

一个爱念的女人是恐怖的。

我希望我可以变得很恐怖。

恐怖到所有人都因为怕被我念

会自动自发反省做好事情。

到时候我就可以全身而退

继续当一个和蔼可亲的人

呵呵~

巧克力

2010-05-02T01:04:00.000-07:00

我小心翼翼地解开了锡箔纸，就像进行一场神圣的仪式。

然后，让巧克力随着温度，慢慢在口里融化。。。

融化了生活中的无奈，

融化了对他和她的不快，

融化了，一切一切，不想记起的事情。

也融化了，思念。

远远地，希望你也能分享这过分的甜。

~Update~

2010-02-09T20:47:00.000-08:00

okie.. i know i didnt update my blog for the past 3 months..n now my final exam over ady, so no more excuse for my super-laziness..

Alot of things happened..n i dunno how to re-arrange them one by one..juz can say, this is the most emotional study week tat i ever had (which is not related to the stressors of exam~.~)

Friends..
Relationship...

Problems still going on..

If i cannot change people, mayb Im d one that should change myself..
But i juz wan2 live for myself.
I know I am selfish.

Okie,
hope i can update more frequently after this..
coz im going to hav long holiday :)
~PEACE~

这个礼拜。。

2009-10-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

这个礼拜，发生了很多事。

所以，心情有点纳闷。

曾经以为自己就算不能掌控大局，至少也还能让情况不太失控。
可是，危机感越来越严重。

因为有些事，任不得自己控制那么多。

[ 人事是非 ]

中学的时候，真的受够了这些事，常常听人家坏话讲来讲去，烦都烦死了，所以决定尽量远离人家的是非。除非很讨人厌，否则就不要轻易批评人家。想不到现在还是会因为无心的举动，而另人家不爽自己。算了，大学第四年了，曾经答应自己不能这样幼稚，处处去在意人家的想法。不吐不快，吐在这里后，我就选择忘记不去追究。我，不要求每个人喜欢我。我，只做我自己。

[感情]

好像很稳，却又觉得不够稳。想要开心，却不够开心。想要生气，却不能真正生气。一个人时想要两个人，两个人时却又想一个人。到底，还缺什么东西？？

[学业]

我讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌眼睛。不要以为看眼睛很容易。看到的时候，眼睛可以很美丽。看不见的时候，眼睛是最丑陋的东西。（那些演戏的都是骗人的啦！！三秒钟看一只眼睛，都来不及 focus 啦！！）

吐完了。。
希望，下个礼拜会更好。。。>.@

如果我变成回忆

2009-10-17T20:43:00.000-07:00

词曲：TANK(吕建中)
演唱：TANK(吕建中)
累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了心跳在梦中
不听话的就停止了
听着呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记

*很喜欢这歌词，写得很有意思，相信写出了很多身患顽疾者的心声。。

每天在医院里，看到很多生老病死。有些人有很顽强的生命力，无论如何都要坚强活下去；有些人却选择放弃，任生命流逝希望能早日脱离苦海。无论如何，请珍惜身边的人，珍惜自己的生命。。要知道，每一次心跳，每一次呼吸，都是福气。

2009-10-04T06:03:00.000-07:00

woohoo~~

see this in jyin's facebook picture..

taken from her autograph, written by standard 5 me.. ^.^

ya..handwriting was so ugly..haha.

anyway, juz realised that i wrote..

" I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR WHEN I GROW UP!!"

so innocent me... at tat time..

i thought my ambition at tat time was to become an artist?lawyer?or a TV host maybe??

I TOTALLY FORGET THAT MY AMBITION ONCE UPON A TIME WAS TO BECOME A DOCTOR

although im doing medicine now..hehe

ppl in this field (lecturers, seniors, juniors....)

always ask why u wan2 choose medicine??

because my dad always want me to become a doctor

because my lecturer said i should become a doctor

because,

i juz dunno what to be,

when i hav2 decide the path of my life.

sometimes..

juz let FATE decide everything.. ^.^

whatever will be will be, que sera sera

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

2009-08-11T05:12:00.000-07:00

Lirik Dan Sebenarnya Yuna

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya
oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,kau bersama yg lain
[Dan Sebenarnya Lirik]

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabilakau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku
oh

A very nice song, tat hav changed my perception on local malay music :)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!

2009-08-09T06:09:00.000-07:00

I JUZ WAN2 SAY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!!

too many problems recently..

need to release..

and YOU, yes i mean YOU

could u plz juz try to understand me more??

yesterday-today-tomorrow

2009-07-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY
Finally saw my X-ray
There were 2 curves on my backspine
Thoracic scoliosis deviated to the left
While lumbar scoliosis deviated to the right
Compensating each other
GOOD or BAD??

TODAY
Saturday again..
Not like usual..
This is a Saturday without him..

Stayed in room..
Studied few pages of neonatology....
Attended a forum about stigma disease...
And slept for more than 10 hours zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

A Sarturday which is so relaxing..
which i should appreciate..
before step into crazily-on-call-ing 5th year n housemanship.

TOMORROW
Going to join Chicken-Run
A marathon competition near timesquare
Heard that we hav2 run by holding an egg in a cone
Sound funny LOL

After tat going to meet him
Maybe??

TIME FLIES~~

just in a short moment..

and it is going to be another week..

~父亲节~

2009-06-20T20:20:00.000-07:00

早上七点半，闹钟响了。

因为是星期天，所以很理所当然的赖床。

九点半，电话又响了！！

哦，吵醒了我的美梦。。。

原来是爸爸。

闲话畅谈了几句后，爸爸突然喷出一句：

“喂，你没有跟爸爸讲父亲节快乐啊？？”

炸到炸到炸到~~~~爸爸真可爱。。

所以就。。。 “父亲节快乐！！！！”

有点内疚，因为还要爸爸来提醒我。。

以前爸爸很严肃很酷，朋友都说我爸爸看起来很凶。

可是爸爸从来没有骂过我，真的。

最近几年，爸爸变得越来越可爱，讲话越来越废。。

哈哈，是好事来的。

爸爸，少抽点烟，少喝点酒啦。。

我还要让你以后多多享福的~~

*爸爸，这个世界上，应该不会有第二个男生比你的爱伟大了！*

Just Wondering

2009-06-19T20:23:00.000-07:00

JUST WONDERING..

1. Why I cant enjoy doing my case write up??

2. Why I hav2 do a research that im not interested in??

3. Why my memory is so poor??

4. Why i always cant save $$$??

5. Why i juz cant hav a person tat plan and pay a vacation for me then i juz go2 enjoy??

BECAUSE..

1. I hate to do assignment.

2. I hav no choice s im stucked in a system tat always come out wif "brilliant" ideas.

3. Im not concentrating when study.

4. I cant control myself for not eating or buying something nice.

5. I never "sacrify" to plan a vacation for oth ppl.

Oh..i hav all d answers for all d problems..

but im juz keep on struggling in d same condition.

*CONFLICT*

my new frenzz~DORAEMON~

2009-05-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

Ang Ang Ang~~

我的小叮当，终于有大叮当来作伴:)

小叮当是朋友的手信，大叮当是爱的礼物。

哈哈哈，以后将会有两个叮当帮我解决困难。

喜欢叮当，因为它总是不计较地帮大雄。

就算不耐烦，嘴上碎碎念，心还是软的。

如果有个人，能像叮当爱护大雄一样爱护我，那该多好？？

心情不好时，看一看叮当，就会觉得安慰。

朋友！！

以后就送我叮当吧！！ :P

ps: 有人在叮当的口袋里塞了一张很有意义的废纸，很无聊哦！！哈哈。

My sentiments of the day..

2009-05-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

1. Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it.

# ya..so if u wan2 memorise smthing, juz think of wan2 4get about it :P

2. Brain: an apparatus with which we think that we think.

# but actually we are not thinking at all.

3. Angels and Demons is a nice movie, even though i watched without subtitle.

# 2D version provided better sound effect, there was no subtitle at all so that u can pay more attention and listen. (Har?!)

4. Zanmai sushi is very delicious!! yummy yummy ~~~ nice to see and good to eat..

# mayb i should 4get about sushi king and support zanmai sushi more haha..

This movie is shot better than Davincci Code,

but Tom Hanks is acting the same expression since beginning til d end..

wasting his talent as a great actor.

Ewan McGregor, gave me more surprise.

He is very suitable to act s metamorphic.

热热热！！

2009-05-03T01:17:00.000-07:00

KL真的很热！

皮肤马上干燥，身体马上发热气。

一整天汗流浃背，昏昏欲睡。

如果房间有冷气多好？？（可是我对冷气敏感。。。）

这里四季如夏，应该找个地方避暑。

可是，我没有钱！！！

啊~~~钱钱钱~~~~

（算了，热到发神经了。。。）

p/s: going to start my new semester with orthopaedic posting tomolo..wish me good luck :)

我的朋友来KT。。。

2009-04-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

我的朋友，去Redang 后，到KT玩。

他们两个，在唐人街，竟然从早上玩到下午！
他们到MadamBee，和艺嘉妈妈谈天，吃了很多食物，一直说好吃好吃。
他们到那间不懂叫什么名的店，喝了已故David特调的果汁，连喝三杯，一直说好喝好喝。
然后，他们差不多就一直在唐人街串门子，和本地人说话。
最后一天，男生竟然还跑去和TTC老板打 BAdminton！！

以前，每一位外地朋友来到这里，都说KT很闷很显不好玩。。
相信很多本地人也认同。

可是我这对可爱的朋友，竟然做了很多我从来没做过的东西！
他们让我知道KT也可以很好玩。
活在这里十多年，从来没想过，到唐人街去了解一下民生，了解文化历史。
很惭愧。。

有时候，旅行真的需要这样，才会有收获，才会有意义。
能像他们这样旅行，真的很棒！！！
真的佩服+ 反省。。 ^.^

习惯和爱中间

2009-04-24T21:43:00.000-07:00

“想要离开才发现，有一个人在习惯和爱中间。”
需要多久时间，两个人，就会处在习惯和爱中间？
有人说：“我最长的恋爱期，只有一年，可是已经感觉很长了哦！”
有人说：“I believe in long and stable relationship..” 所以她谈了五年恋爱，打算在两年后注册结婚。
也有人，在爱情长跑七年后，落得黯然分手的结局。

难道，爱了就不应该习惯？
难道，习惯了就不爱吗？

爱情要来要走，就像天要下雨，挡也挡不住。
所以，只能在还有爱情的时候，好好珍惜那美好时光。
所以，没有爱情的时候，不要犹豫放手。

习惯了的爱，会变得越来越不像爱，
可是，习惯的爱，毕竟还是一种爱。。

im tagged....

2009-03-25T05:48:00.000-07:00

Directions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to tag, listing their names and why you choose them. Don't forget to leave comment ( You're tagged) and to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tag you. Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. Im tagged by my brother, whose name is origin from the cigarettes "Winston".

2. Winston is now having a 3cm fresh reddish scar on his left arm, as he losed in the fight with "the scary winnie the pooh who is going 2 shanghai" yesterday.

3. Forget about him, i would like 2 write about me now. I perm my hair into curly recently, coz i wan2 hav a more fiminine n sexy look. But now i juz feel tat my hairstyle look untidy n unwashed ( n i wash my hair everyday k....)

4. I plan 2 start make up myself. Coz when u walk in KL everyone is having gorgeous style but im juz looking pale, but im lazy to remove make up and wear contact lenses..so shud i juz be myself??

5. Im eating alot, but my weight is only 45kg.. im worry tat i wil get hypercholesterolemia before i gain my weight to 48kg.

6. Im trained 2 become mature, but i always hope 2 become a childish person...coz when u r childish, u wont realise about responsibilities.

7. i realise it is very hard to write until 16, but i wont giv up here..coz i hav strong determination!!

8. ya..this is my favorite number "8". I never buy toto b4, but i hope when i buy for the first time, my lucky number wil giv me the lucky chance to "fatt choy" hek hek hek..

9. now im a part time volunteer in taman sinar harapan.. to survive, i learn 2 b more n more patient. But im enjoying, especially when the angels there giv me lots of lovely smile ^.^

10. Im looking for holiday part time job now..anyone in KT can recommend any job for me?? please?? my mind is running slower n slower per day if do nothing..

11. I wan2 learn cooking, but im lacking a good teacher, and a good kitchen for practices..

12.I wan2 write essays in mandarin.. hope i can produce at least 1 essay in my blog for this whole long long holiday..

13.my laptop battery is low now..so i only can type faster..ya.. i wan2 traine myself to type very very FAST!!

14. Im trying to get more working experince, b4 im bonded to the job tat i may hav2 sacrify whole of my life..Medical doctor always hav2 sacrify, isn't it??

15. I wan2 change d design, font, and color of my blog..but i dunno how2 make it, anyone can teach me please??

16.Yes!! finally i reach 16!! Im not going 2 tag anyone!!! coz this is a very wu liao place 2 let ppl talk cock. hahaha..

心情小记

2009-03-16T01:25:00.000-07:00

1。

这里的雨天总是绵绵不绝

让人只想躲在被窝里赖床

KL的雨就像洪水猛兽

雷霆交加

让你一边心惊胆跳

一边祈祷最好不要被劈到

一样的雨天

却因为回家

所以一切变得温柔美好

^.^

2。

弟弟获得十二粒A

胜过我哦！！

他回来问了我一个问题

“会不会不开心我赢过你？？”

白痴~~

没听过青出于蓝而胜于蓝吗？？

我当然为你开心！

有哪一个姐姐会幼稚到为这种事去妒忌？？

(-.-!!)

可是未来还有很长的路。。

不是有A 就可以解决

加油啦

P（——）P

3。

朋友不小心考试被当掉

“不小心”——

因为一直以来他都是很厉害很勤劳

却很不幸成为三分之一被当掉的人

大学考试真的很靠运气

不是有读书就会考好成绩

可是这次我真的很幸运！

真的谢谢没有当掉我的老师。。

我会加油的。

GoinG BacK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wee~~~~~ :)

2009-03-03T23:22:00.000-08:00

Finally..

after a few months..
after the toughest O&G posting
after d torturing final exam

im going back home tonite!!!!!!!!!!

清醒吧！！

2009-03-01T03:27:00.000-08:00

清醒吧！！

现实是如此就只能接受。。

什么也改变不了。。

不要再自怨自艾。

不要再钻牛角尖了。

前路还有很多东西等你去完成！！

SAD

2009-02-25T06:26:00.000-08:00

1.
today juz finished the toughest part of the exam
but i did it BADLY
n KILLER s my examiner
who failed a lot of ppl last semester.
really hope tat i wont b his prey.. T.T

so...
totally in depressed mood...
even after 5 hours of sing-k session..
still cant get the feeling out of my mind..

im so WORRY..
i dun wan2 repeat exam!!

God.. plz bless me..
i dun wish for flying colors..
juz hope tat i can pass this final exam...plz..

2.
1 of my coursemate is in depression now
he is a quiet and shy guy
but he is intelligent
i know he is type of person that studied a lot of books..
coz he always can answer lecturers' questions.

but now..
after 3 years..
he is lack of motivation to continue his study in this course..
n planning 2 change to another faculty..
he doesn't wan2 study medicine anymore..
i dunno wat is his reason for "lack of motivation"..
but i think all the medical students always facing the same problem "STRESS".

i really hope i wont b the next 1 tat follow his step..
i love medicine..
but i never imagine study medicine can reach this kind of toughness..
it is totally not like..
wat i hav imagined b4..

mayb im taking the wrong path of my life..
but who know..
wat wil happen next??
n i juz can do nothing..

finally,
GOOD LUCK to my fren..hope he can think properly and make the best decision for himself..
n GOOD LUCK to myself too..

姓名学-性格分析

2009-02-18T02:28:00.000-08:00

廖维娜-----很特别的名字（好练）
所以上网算一算
得到的结果如下：

《内在思想》

*腦筋比較保守死板，不容易變通*

*外表溫訓文靜的樣子，但是外柔內剛型*

*講求道理，對就是對、不對就是不對，不能容忍放水*

*不喜歡冒險，喜歡安定有保障的生活*

*吃軟不吃硬，只要對方態度放軟就會跟著心軟 *

《外在行為》

*不按牌裡出牌，經常令人跌破眼鏡*

*相當調皮、可愛，常常是團體中的開心果*

*相當具有同情心，是個性情中人*

*比較愛享受，非常善待自己*

*疑心病有點重，對於親蜜的人更是懷疑東懷疑西 *

朋友们，这结果对不对呢？？？

无聊~~~

2009-02-17T20:07:00.000-08:00

大家一起来猜成语，很无聊哦。。

1。怎样让麻雀安静？？

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答案：压它一下！！！

因为。。。

鸦雀无声！！

2。有一只熊走过来

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答案：有备而来

因为。。。

有BEAR而来！！！

3。谁的家没电话？？

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答案：天衣

因为。。

天衣无PHONE（缝）！！！

哈哈。。

超无聊的。。

读书读到太无聊了。。：P

<3 Valentine's Day <3

2009-02-14T18:56:00.000-08:00

Just a simple celebration for Valentine's day..

went for movie in sunway pyramid

(ya...i forced him 2 acc me for this movie -.-)

"THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON"

not going 2 write the synopsis here..

a nice movie with good storyline

just too long (2hrs ++)

i know d 1 beside me almost fall asleep

Brad Pitt is very HANDSOME!!!!

i wish i could b Angelina Jolie hehe..

wat i learned fr d movie is...

" LIFE IS UNDERSTOOD BACKWARD..

BUT IT SHOULD BE LIVED FORWARD"

so..this movie should b recommended 2 ppl who like 2 think..

ya..n i cried at d end of d movie..

(juz for a few seconds la..)

overall, i wil giv 8/10..

after tat..

went for SEAFOOD..

weird for Valentine's day celebration..

but i know this is d way he show his romantic..

so we enjoyed d meal..

in silence..

coz most of d times busy eating crabs..

hahaha.

but im happy, coz this is 默契。

p/s: dear, i wan flowers.....

DISAPPOINTED!!

2009-02-05T00:13:00.000-08:00

juz finished my long case assessment today

totally like a SHIT..

i think my brain did not functioning well for the 20 minutes.

WEAK BASIC!!

LACK OF PRACTICE!!

mayb i should re-assess my value in medical school..

m i not clever enough??

or too stupid 2 become a medical student??

how2 continue this toughness..

wif lower n lower self-esteem days by days...

wuwu...who can tell me wat2 do.....???

LOst...

2009-02-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

long case exam is coming..

perhaps tomolo.. ( i hope im lucky enough 2 get at least friday)

dunno who is d examiner..dunno when..dunno where..

so lost.. SO NERVOUS!!!!!

but..no mood 2 study

still in CNY mood..

n post-holiday syndrome..

wish me good luck!!!!

Finally...^.^

2009-01-21T10:04:00.000-08:00

To all my frens..

Finally i hav finished conducting 5 normal deliveries!! ^.^

Thx 2 all ur support n encouragement..
Thx 2 those patients that hav tried their effort 2 PUSH..
Thx 2 midwives, housemen, n registrars tat teached me a lot..
Thx 2 my oncall-mates tat accompanied n helped me a lot..

Last but not least...

Thx 2 those who scolded me, teased me, n made me phobia of labour room..
coz u all trained me 2 become a better person..
and i wil always remind myself NOT TO BE LIKE U.

p/s : Yeah! i can enjoy my CNY holiday! no more ONCALLs!!!!

N!cE SToRy...

2009-01-13T00:24:00.000-08:00

<<感激月亮,否定太陽>>

'被照顧到無微不至的人反而不會感恩，因為當白天夠亮，太陽就是多餘的 '。
有一則猶太故事說，有一天，有人問一位老先生，太陽和月亮哪個比較重要。

那位老先生想了半天，回答道：「是月亮，月亮比較重要。」
為什麼呢？
「因為月亮是在夜晚發光，那是我們最需要光亮的時候，而白天已經夠亮了，
太陽卻在那時候照耀。」

你或許會笑這位老先生糊塗，但你不覺得很多人也是這樣嗎？

每天照顧你的人，你從不覺得有什麼，若是陌生人這樣對你，你就認為他人真好；
你的父母、妻子或先生一直付出，你總覺得理所當然，甚至還有得嫌；
一旦外人為你做出類似行為，你就受寵若驚，你就會很感激。
這不是跟「感激月亮，否定太陽」一樣糊塗嗎？

有個女孩跟媽媽大吵了一架，氣得奪門而出，決定再也不要回到這個
討厭的家了！一整天，她都在外面閒逛，肚子餓得咕嚕咕嚕叫，但偏偏
又沒帶零用錢出來，可又拉不下臉回家吃飯。一直到了晚上，她來到一家
麵攤旁，聞到了陣陣的香味，真是好想吃一碗，但身上又沒帶錢只能不住
的吞口水。

忽然，老闆親切的問：「小姐，妳要不要吃麵啊？」她不好意思的回答：
「嗯！可是……我沒有帶錢……」老闆聽了大笑：「哈哈，沒關係，今天
就算老闆請客吧！」
女孩簡直不敢相信自己的耳朵，她坐下來。不一會兒，麵來了，她吃得津津有味，
並說：「老闆，你人真好！」
老闆說：「哦？怎麼啦？」女孩接著回答：「對啊！我們素不相識，你卻對我
那麼好，不像我媽，根本不了解我的需要和想法，真氣人呢！」
老闆又笑了：「哈，小姐，我才不過給妳一碗麵而已，妳就這麼感激我，
那麼妳媽媽幫妳煮了二十幾年的飯，妳不是更應該感激她嗎？」
被老闆這麼一講，女孩頓時有如大夢初醒，眼淚瞬間奪眶而出！
顧不得還剩下的半碗麵，立刻飛奔回家。

才到家門前的巷口，就遠遠的看到媽媽，焦急的在門口四處張望，
她的心立刻揪在一起！有一千句、一萬句的對不起想對媽媽說。
還沒來得及開口，只見媽媽已迎了上前：「唉呦！妳一整天跑去那裡了啊？
嚇死我了！來，進來把手洗一洗，吃晚飯了。」
這天晚上，這個女孩才深刻體會到媽媽對她的愛 .

太陽一直都在，人就忘了它給的光亮，當親人一直都在，
人就會忘了他們給的溫暖；一個被照顧到無微不至的人
反而不會去感恩，因為白天已經夠亮了，太陽不是多餘的嗎？

p/s:
nice story from email..
juz post here especially for those who always complain of mother's cooking..
HOMESICK mood...@.@

HAZARDOUS day..

2009-01-10T23:31:00.000-08:00

i think i hav reach d LIMIT..

bad luck again n again..
yesterday really a HAZARD 4 me..

morning went oncall patient has poor progress..
nite went oncall patient ended up with vacuum delivery..
so, i wasted whole day not even with 1 conduct of delivery.

somemore met stupid idiot red shirt lady..
scolded me 4 nonsense things (kak, im sterile n bukan tak faham bahasa k?? boleh x tolong jangan pukul saya sesuka hati??)
and dunno which stupid idiot ate my zinger burger ( highly suspicious 1 of d red shirt lady)

i juz need 3 more deliveries..
GOD can u plz help me in this 2 weeks??
plz..plz..

p/s:
TO myself- BIG girl dun cry...gambate...b tough 2 overcome all these hazardous things..
TO d red shirt lady- dun treat ppl so bad..u wil hav 报应。。。

JUZ wan2 update

2009-01-03T18:44:00.000-08:00

yeah...finally a Sunday im free 2 write blog here..

too many things happened in December..
i got a lot of photos and stories but havent update until now..coz d stupid LAN setting here always "loadingggggggggggggggg" when i wan2 upload photo.
im very impatient.

Impatient coz now im in O&G posting
too much things havent done yet,
wasted 4 times oncall from 7pm-7am but juz conducted 1 delivery.
very "kek sim"( hokkien)

hope my next coming oncall will be better..
at least 2 deliveries plz GOD..
n all my patients can deliver via spontaneous vaginal delivery within few hours..(no more caesarean section or vacuum plz..)

lastly,
原来周末呆在房可以完成很多东西，可是我还是比较喜欢浪费时间和你出去。
because LOVE is d best medication for everything ^.^

picture of d day: baby boy tat same birthday wif me ( but not conducted by me la...)

无聊的我要用中文打字！！

2008-11-25T00:56:00.000-08:00

今天，遇到了一位超级美女医生教授，真的超级美！！
大大的眼睛，长长的睫毛，高高的鼻子，樱桃般的小嘴，真想一口亲下去！！

哈哈，虽然她的课是早上七点，却值得早醒哦。。
因为她就像一道美丽的风景，为这枯燥的医院染上美丽的色彩。。哈哈。

同学甲：i never forget her..she is gorgeous!!!
同学乙：有样有脑，劲！！
同学丙：看她嘴唇真想kiss下去。。（然后开始发梦。。）

虽然很好奇她早上几点起来化妆扮美美，
还是很希望可以变得像她一样？?
好啦不可以贪心，有一半就好？？哈哈。。

ps: yeah!! 有了vista,打中文真快！！^.^
所以，无聊的我要用中文打字！！

College Day..

2008-11-16T04:04:00.000-08:00

Kolej Tun Dr. Ismail UKm "Hari Keluarga Kolej" was held yesterday..
im d Ajk Multimedia and d part time model 4 catwalk of pakaian tradisional..

In punjabi costume..

They say this Punjabi costume suite me hehe..
I look super-thin!!!

My patner amir..

dun u think he look like GTO??

The GREAT Siva-ji and Wil~~~~Na~~

JOJO the exco..his shirt is short enough to expose

the tranversus abdominus muscles.

The multimedia team...

never do audio work and only used movie maker once..

luckily everything run smoothly..hehe..

got indian look with this make-up??

Thx Kumutha for her help..
my Dark eye circles are HUGE enough to fight wif panda..

after remove my make-up
so tiring..@.@

my brother's graduation day..

2008-11-06T06:52:00.001-08:00

my brother..

last time he was d shortest in my family..but now he is d TALLEST.
but this is not d topic today...

few days ago..he had his form 5 graduation day.

i was not there, so he sent me his pic 2 "tayang".

because....

they had the graduation ceremony in a hotel!!

they had coats 2 wear!!

n then received their certs fr the pengarah pendidikan terengganu!!

n in 2004, when i was graduated..

the ceremony was held in the old school hall ..

i juz wore my old pinafore school uniform..

n received my cert fr dear mr.seah the school principal..

my old schoolmates..can u feel how unfair is this???

but they hav2 pay RM50 la...hehe..

due 2 my brother..another school did their graduation day in d hotel too..

our school oso kia su 1 :P

so wan2 do graduation day in d high class hotel oso..

but..i feel tat our graduation day in d school was more meaningful
i still keep few of the tissue papers...

dunno how many of my fren still remember this??

sue yen, hue ming, can u c ur writing??hehe

those old school days were memorable..^.^

Patient case report

2008-10-31T08:45:00.000-07:00

Patient: Lew Wil Na
RN: N 1216756

Complaint of: vomit x 3 since yesterday evening
diarrhea x 2 this morning

Progress:
yesterday cooked spagetti for dinner, vomitted the first time while cooking.
then try 2 eat, but vomitted again after ate 2 spoons of spagetti, threw away d whole plate.

went to A&E department.
the staff asked me to pay rm30. i said i was d student here.
she said next time muz get "surat pengesahan" first.
really stupid law, where got sick ppl still got mood go2 get letter fr d office??

waited for 2 hours.
vomitted again.
finally met d doctor.
u guess wat was d first question he asked??

"kenapa tak pergi klinik luar dulu???"
fainted---i know my case was too small for A&E department..but where else i can go??this is d nearest walking distance hospital tat i can get... *sweat*

then d 2nd question---->>>
"kenapa tak terus minta ORS daripada kaunter??"
fainted again---if i can get without ur prescription..then sure i wil go ahead la dear doctor.

then d 3rd question--->>>
"jadi u rasa apa yang terjadi??"
ok...this 1 i know..tersalah makan.
my own diagnosis: acute gastroenteritis
most probably organism : bacillus cereus
most probably source: nasi beriani tat i ate for lunch..or mayb d sugarcane juice??

anyway...thx d nice doctor tat gave me MC..:)

then today,
woke up n wan2 cook porridge,
after ate 2 tablespoon of porridge,
then diarrhea 2 times... wuwuwu...wasted d whole bowl of food again..

dinner juz ate a bread,
luckily no vomit or diarrhea again..
god bless me..
d infection finally self-limiting....

2 operations in 1 day..

2008-10-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

well...i should write this last week..but because of many many factors (busy and lazy hehe..)so postpone til today :P

actually nothing special..juz my first visit into Operation Theatre(OT)

1st operation: total parathyroidectomy (2.30 hrs)

- basically juz open an hole at d anterior part of d neck, then dig for the

parathyroid glands tat located at d posterior part of thyroid gland,

then remove all d glands lo...(total=4)...then implant a little bit of removed

parathyroid tissues into d arm there.

2nd operation: mastectomy with excision of axillary lymph nodes (2.00 hrs)

- erm...cut d left breast tat infiltrated by cancer and d axillary lymph node.

#this operation ended up with lots of bleeding but d patient was well now :)

^.^ overall, juz felt like watched 2 movies in 1 day.. but i think i wont become surgeon as they need 2 b really skillful and careful.. and i dun wan2 get osteoporosis (having backache even juz standed and watched at side... :"(

2008-10-16T02:03:00.000-07:00

today..i wasted 3 hours to wait the "must see procedure-ERCP"..
finally the surgeon was stucked in the operation theatre and there was no one to come n perform the procedure..
quite pity to all the patients tat waited outside (they need 2 fast b4 the procedure)
nvm..nvm.. medical student life is just waiting and waiting..
wait for doctors..wait for procedures..wait for patients...
n i already be trained to become a very patient person ^.^

but..thanks god! i passed my last semester final exam!! quite relieved after i knowed my result hehe..(thanks my fren tat phoned me n my dear sushi king hehe..)

PS: going for movie this weekend!!! yeah!!!

好朋友是....

2008-10-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

认识就是朋友吗?
今天的星洲副刊讨论这项专题, 让我想了很多.
因为,打开通讯录, 很多人认识了整整十年,
却不肯定是不是"朋友"..

知己难寻, 难得成长的路上有他和她的陪伴,
虽然很多时候友谊不能永固,但还是幸运能够相遇.

只是...
越长大,真正的朋友就越难寻, 不是吗?

我曾经拥有过的好朋友们, 你们还好吗??

2008-10-12T03:12:00.001-07:00

juz try 2 post something

--LewN@--

Bad Temper :(

Family Medicine Posting

People, u still wan2 study medic ah??

无聊的咒怨

巧克力

~Update~

这个礼拜。。

如果我变成回忆

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!

yesterday-today-tomorrow

~父亲节~

~~Just Wondering~~

my new frenzz~DORAEMON~

My sentiments of the day..

热热热！！

我的朋友来KT。。。

习惯和爱中间

im tagged....

心情小记

GoinG BacK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wee~~~~~ :)

清醒吧！！

SAD

姓名学-性格分析

无聊~~~

<3 Valentine's Day <3

DISAPPOINTED!!

LOst...

Finally...^.^

N!cE SToRy...

HAZARDOUS day..

JUZ wan2 update

无聊的我要用中文打字！！

College Day..

my brother's graduation day..

Patient case report

2 operations in 1 day..

好朋友是....

Just Wondering